Still don't know....

Ok, so I've had the feeling for about 2 months now, that I'm freaking pregnant. I am still breastfeeding my 11 month old, but have had like every pregnancy symptom I know of, I have yet to actally throw up, but I've had nausea, been lightheaded, mild cramping, serious aversions to some foods, and smells (like the smell of cooking bacon, ugh!) I've had to pee more often than usual, and I swear the only times I've really FELT this prego, was when I was!! But a few days ago, I finally got around to taking a pregnancy test, that came out negative. After researching on the internet, I guess that breastfeeding doesn't effect the outcome of an at home test. so yeah, I just don't know. I swear, I really feel like maybe I'm just loosing my mind or something. I'm just not really sure where to go from here. maybe I should just wait a few more weeks, and see how I feel. It's crazy, cause on one hand, I've been so SURE that I am pregnant, but after getting a neg test, I'm not sure I really WANT to get pregnant, (unless I am already) so I want to start on the pill or something, which I only should do if I'm NOT prego. so UGH, what now, just wait and see, ahhh..... I just want to KNOW FOR SURE, and go from there....... I swear I'm just driving myself crazy!!!! alright guess that's all for now.... time will tell I suppose......