Well this evening found me sitting at the kitchen table for nearly an hour, attempting to teach my almost 19 month old that he has to eat his dinner. Now normally he does so good, and is a better eater than his 4 year old brother. But lately he just gets down, and runs around after eating 2 or 3 bites of his food. Today, I'd just had ENOUGH!!! And so, I got out his booster seat again, buckled him in, and sat w/him while he cried, threw a fit, nearly feel asleep, and finally ate his dinner. Ahhhh, sometimes I wonder if I must be crazy wanting to have another one. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE being a mommy, and I love my kids more than anything. But some days I wonder if I will make it through these years with even a shred of sanity. Some days I have to remind myself multiple times that these are some of the best years (though there will be many good ones in the future too) I have to remember that my kids are not always going to want mommy to play with them, and do everything for them, and that I need to just appreciate today for what it is, and leave tomorrow to tomorrow.
Anyway, I've noticed lately that I must have a need for faith. As my husband still has no work, and just found out today that we do not qualify to receive unemployment, granted he only paid into it for the 3 months that he worked in MT, he made over $13,000, and now after a month of waiting to find out what was going on, and counting on having that money, we will not be getting a dime. It's been tough to say the least, though I am greatful that there are programs out there that can help families out at times like this, it's extremely humbling to have to be one to ask for the help. But it far exceeds becoming homeless, or not being able to feed my children, and the baby growing inside of me. I know beyond any doubt that somehow things WILL work out, and that everything does indeed happen for a reason, even if we are unable to see how, or why. I try to focus on keeping an open mind, and being open to receive the guidance that I need in order to find a solution. Somehow it will come, I know that we will get by, and though I do not feel that we will end up on the street, I know that if for some reason we do, there is a reason, and that everything will be ok. I am so thankful that we all have our health, and that we have each other. Having my wonderful husband here, by my side everyday gives me strength. Somehow whenever I start to fall on my face, and loose hope, he is always there to catch me and help me back to my feet. It's when times are tough that his true nature really shines through, and gives me a wonderful reminder of why I am with him, and how perfectly he completes me :) I guess on that note I'll end for the day, with the faith that a bright future is within my grasp, and I all have to do is take hold, and let the light within shine forth. :)
Friday, January 29, 2010
Thursday, January 7, 2010
new addition :)
Well, it has yet again been forever since I posted anything on here, and though I know nobody really reads this, I guess I'll still update whomever comes across it :) Sooo..... I am pregnant again, I am 16 weeks now, and really excited about the newest addition that will hopefully be joining my family by June 23rd :) I'm really really hoping for a girl, but I know that I will love this sweet little baby, whatever it is :) I won't be able to find out what I'm having (hopefully they'll be able to tell) until Feb 2nd. Ahh, the suspense kills me. I just wanna know already! :) But ahh, it is nice to know that whatever this baby is, it's healthy and growing every day :)
Oh how I love my children. I remember times growing up when my mother would tell me that I wouldn't understand just how much she loved me, until I had children of my own, and SURPRISE, she was right. Haha, just like she was about SOO many things. It's funny how much smarter your parents get, (or how smart you realize they always were) once you have kids of your own. I really appreciate how patient my mother has always been, I can think of MANY MANY times throughout my childhood, and teenage years, where if I had been my mother, I'd have beaten myself to a pulp, or at least yelled, and wanted to beat myself, and yet my mom never did. She is such an incredible example, one I will most likely never emulate myself, but still she makes me want to be a better mom :) at least it's something to strive for. :)
Hmm, well after going off on that tangent I've completely forgotten anything else I wanted to write about, so I suppose I'll leave it at that. Here's to a year, filled with love, happiness, and prosperity for all :)
Oh how I love my children. I remember times growing up when my mother would tell me that I wouldn't understand just how much she loved me, until I had children of my own, and SURPRISE, she was right. Haha, just like she was about SOO many things. It's funny how much smarter your parents get, (or how smart you realize they always were) once you have kids of your own. I really appreciate how patient my mother has always been, I can think of MANY MANY times throughout my childhood, and teenage years, where if I had been my mother, I'd have beaten myself to a pulp, or at least yelled, and wanted to beat myself, and yet my mom never did. She is such an incredible example, one I will most likely never emulate myself, but still she makes me want to be a better mom :) at least it's something to strive for. :)
Hmm, well after going off on that tangent I've completely forgotten anything else I wanted to write about, so I suppose I'll leave it at that. Here's to a year, filled with love, happiness, and prosperity for all :)
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