The joys and trials of toddlers

Well this evening found me sitting at the kitchen table for nearly an hour, attempting to teach my almost 19 month old that he has to eat his dinner. Now normally he does so good, and is a better eater than his 4 year old brother. But lately he just gets down, and runs around after eating 2 or 3 bites of his food. Today, I'd just had ENOUGH!!! And so, I got out his booster seat again, buckled him in, and sat w/him while he cried, threw a fit, nearly feel asleep, and finally ate his dinner. Ahhhh, sometimes I wonder if I must be crazy wanting to have another one. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE being a mommy, and I love my kids more than anything. But some days I wonder if I will make it through these years with even a shred of sanity. Some days I have to remind myself multiple times that these are some of the best years (though there will be many good ones in the future too) I have to remember that my kids are not always going to want mommy to play with them, and do everything for them, and that I need to just appreciate today for what it is, and leave tomorrow to tomorrow.

Anyway, I've noticed lately that I must have a need for faith. As my husband still has no work, and just found out today that we do not qualify to receive unemployment, granted he only paid into it for the 3 months that he worked in MT, he made over $13,000, and now after a month of waiting to find out what was going on, and counting on having that money, we will not be getting a dime. It's been tough to say the least, though I am greatful that there are programs out there that can help families out at times like this, it's extremely humbling to have to be one to ask for the help. But it far exceeds becoming homeless, or not being able to feed my children, and the baby growing inside of me. I know beyond any doubt that somehow things WILL work out, and that everything does indeed happen for a reason, even if we are unable to see how, or why. I try to focus on keeping an open mind, and being open to receive the guidance that I need in order to find a solution. Somehow it will come, I know that we will get by, and though I do not feel that we will end up on the street, I know that if for some reason we do, there is a reason, and that everything will be ok. I am so thankful that we all have our health, and that we have each other. Having my wonderful husband here, by my side everyday gives me strength. Somehow whenever I start to fall on my face, and loose hope, he is always there to catch me and help me back to my feet. It's when times are tough that his true nature really shines through, and gives me a wonderful reminder of why I am with him, and how perfectly he completes me :) I guess on that note I'll end for the day, with the faith that a bright future is within my grasp, and I all have to do is take hold, and let the light within shine forth. :)