Seems like the only time I really get on here, is when I need to vent about my husband. And today is no different. I've been getting so intensly infuriated by my hubby lately. All he ever does is sit on the computer, or play his damn video games, and quite frankly I'm OVER IT!!! I'm tired of comming home and having him ALWAYS playing his fucking games. I want a man who actually thinks about me on occasion, and not just to get a piece of ass either, a man who will get up in the middle of the night w/kids, just to let me sleep (even if it's only once a year!?!) The man hasn't worked in over a year, almost never gets up w/the kids, and ya know, I just feel like the only person he really cares about is himself. sure he makes meals, even does the dishes on occasion, but that's just not enough anymore! I feel like the only time he ever makes any kind of effort, is when I give him unlimatums. I'm tired of threats, I'm tired of being angry, and I'm tired of giving, and not getting it back. I need a partner, someone who is loving, and nurturing, and puts his family first... But still this realization does me no good. I have such a hard time, because I just don't feel like I have anyone to talk to. I want to call my sister, she always has good advice, but I know that she already has some serious issues w/him, and wants me to leave him. I'm tired of having to defend him, when most days I just wanna leave. I love him, but at what point is enough enough? I can't keep living this way, it's draining every ounce of love and energy I have, just to keep living this life. Something has GOT to change in a serious way, I just don't know where to go from here....
Do you know how alike we are? I just had this conversation with my mom. Where it was finally so frustrating and I was so drained that I actually spent a good 2 days weighing the pros and cons of a divorce after having kids.
ReplyDeleteHonestly the jury is still out for me.
I wish we lived closer! I wish we could talk everyday and meet up at McDonalds with the kids because I think that would be wonderful!
That being said, you need to take an extended vacation without your husband, take the kids and go stay with your mom or sister or me ;-) for over a week. Just to get a little break.
Also, you need to take a small vacation, like a couple nights at a hotel or something, with just your husband and no kids.
And if your husband needs a job, tell him to come work for Jordan! Seriously! Really, really!
Finally, I love you to pieces! You are an amazing mother, a beautiful person and one of my best friends! Your smile and laugh light up a room so if you are not having the energy to let that smile out, that needs to be fixed. Because you are a naturally happy person.
I am praying for you! And sending lots of mental hugs!