the rantings of a crazy pregnant woman... :)

Ok, so first off, Naomi since you're the only person who reads my blog, I've just gotta say that you have become one of the best friends that I have! I love you so much girl, you always make me smile, and feel like I'm a better mom than I am, which just makes me want to be better. You inspire me, and just make me happy :) Thank you so SOO much! :) love you girl!

So anyway, I just feel the need to post about a few different things... first being that my husband has recently become friends w/a pornstar on facebook. He did tell me about it, expressing his surprise in finding out that she was a pornstar. He recently added a bunch of random people to add to his teams on some of the games he plays on facebook. He doesn't have even one picture of any of us, including him on his profile, so it's really not a big deal, but today I went to login to facebook, and it automatically brought up his. And right there on the updates, were a bunch new pics that this pornstar chick had just added to her profile, most she's half naked in, and I'll admit she does have a killer body, but that just makes me feel worse. Now for one thing she lives in Mexico, and another I KNOW that he isn't into trashy woman (not that being a pornstar, necisarily makes someone trasy) but yeah, I know he's really not into woman like that, and never has been. Still it does make me feel a bit self concious, and well, jelous I guess. I know that really I have no reason to be, but yeah. I don't know. I guess it doesn't really matter, and the fact that he told me when he figured it out is good. I suppose it's just my own insecurities, and the fact that I'm 9 months pregnant, and this is pretty much the only time that I'm just not real interested in getting any anyway, and he assumes that because I complain already about my pelvis hurting, and everything else, he doesn't really try. So I know that that plays a role in me feeling more insecure about it all. I guess I should just be happy that he's been different this time around w/actually wanting to give me some action, thank god he finally got over being freaked out by the big prego belly :) haha.

Well, after a night of contractions, and me thinking that I was actually in labor. Then finally being able to sleep somtime after about 12:30, I went into the doctor this morning, to find out that I'm like 70% effaced, and 2 cm dialated. Not quite as far as I'd like to be, but at least I'm getting closer :) HOORAY! But, they found protien in my urine, and my blood pressure was high, so I have to go back first thing monday (so long as I don't go into actual labor before then) to have them test me again, and make sure I don't have preeclampsia. If I do they're going to put me on bedrest :( BOO!! They told me to just take it easy and to drink a TON of water, which I've been doing, and I'll admit I am feeling better (and having to pee every 10 min). I've still been having contractions today, but nothing that's regular, it's just enough to make me stop and notice every now and then. Oh the joys of damn false labor pains!! Oh well, hopefully they're getting me closer to having this baby, and the real thing :) Bring on those painful, consistant contractions baby, I'm READY!! :) Oh yeah, and one super awesome thing for today, was that while I was taking a nap, Jer cleaned the whole kitchen (including sweeping the floor, and cleaning the table) and washed all the dishes! It was SOOO SOOO nice! I love having a clean kitchen, oh yeah, and he also did a load of laundry too :) YAY, he def scored some brownie points today. Then on top of that, we went to a friends daughter's birthday party, and he chased, and kept track of the boys the ENTIRE time that we were there, I didn't even have to say a word. he didn't even complain about it at all. It was fabulous :) so on that happy note I guess I'll go make that lasanga sauce that he's been really wanting me to make, since I just wasn't feeling up to it the last 2 days, and it really needs to get done. Hooray for a happy day :)