modivation.... where have you gone???

Well I'm sad to report that I haven't done anything the last few days. I woke up early on Friday, the day I went to a family reunion, and worked out. but then I stayed there that night, and shockingly didn't do a damn thing. my baby has been a bit gassy the past few nights, so I haven't been sleeping as well as I usually do, and hence I just don't want to get out of bed AT ALL. infact I spent a lot of the day today sleeping, and I'm just as tired now, as I was when I got up this morning. And I didn't even attempt to get up w/my hubby at 5 this morning. blah. I've also started my period (SUPER BLAH) I NEVER got a period while breastfeeding the boys. god damn birth controll! I'm seriously considering switching to a progesterone only b/c again. not to mention this stuff has also effected my milk supply (though my baby's doctor says she's gaining plenty of weight and he's not concerned w/her not getting enough) I have noticed that I don't have nearly the supply I did before. I just REALLY do NOT want to take some stupid shit every single day, w/3 kids, it's just too much for me. ok well I'm gonna have to finish this rant another time, cause I'm about to loose my mind w/my 2 year old screaming and throwing a HUGE fit at the gate. so guess I'll get to this later....