Well, I'm finding that I really enjoy my morning times after the hubs goes off to work. Usually I get my alone time at night, but lately it's all I can do just to stay awake while I get the boys to bed, then I'm awake every morning around 4:30 before the alarm goes off, and thinking "why the hell am I awake already?!" funny, somehow I'm not really tired, and even when I stay in bed I rarely sleep. I'm not sure if it's because of my thyroid getting where it should be, or what, but it's all good. :)
So this morning while I was surfing around, I came across some pics of my 4 year old's name sake, from years ago, and it really made me realize how lucky I am. Warner died when his little boy was 4 years old (can't believe it's been so long ago) and I think of my sweet boys, I can't imagine having to raise them without their daddy. Even though I didn't know Warner as well as I'd like to have known him, I know he was an incredible man, and a great dad. I hope his wife and son are doing well. We don't hear from, or see them hardly at all anymore, but my prayers and thoughts are with them.
Ahh ok, well I've got myself sobbing now, which is becomming all to familiar. haha, I swear I'm even more emotional w/this pregnancy (if that's even possible) than I was with any other. maybe it's cause I know I'm having a girl now. haha. Well I'm really thinking about a tiny little glass of coffee, and some breakfast, so I'm off ;) here's to another great day of being a mommy :)
I think I was more emotional with Mak than Oscar, maybe it's all the extra estrogen flowing through you :-)
ReplyDeleteThat would be such a tragedy to lose your spouse! I can't even imagine how I would cope!